Fresh Start

Change is a weird thing. I am living in a different house, with different people, in a different town, and working at a different job. I think it's the pace of it all that surprises me. And it's kind of odd that it surprises me because aren't we told that change is the only constant in life? This time a year ago, I was probably settling in for my last quarter as a UC student- buying books and checking my schedule. I was probably spending time in Davis with my roommates and anticipating the end of being a student (finally). Today, I worked as an employee while students started their first day of classes at college. I worked and went home and cooked. Now I am here writing this. A year ago my biggest concern was passing my classes and getting into a Fellowship program that is not even on my mind. Today, I am working on changing this mindset of planning and endless anticipation. Instead of being intimidated by and focused so far out into the future- my plan is to focus ...

I finished college officially over a month ago. I received the big Bachelor's degree and I feel....entirely the same. And, not to mention, entirely overwhelmed. Four years of college and I am finding myself feeling anxiety about the abyss like future ahead of me. I imagined that I would take graduation and "adult-hood" on gracefully... One succinct step at a time and I would 1) graduate 2) receive a job (and in my mind that meant an "impressive" job) 3) I would have my life together. So as I am sure you guessed, I have one of those goals achieved. I realized that it is so easy to imagine a "pinterest" perfect lifestyles for ourselves. Even though I would never admit it out loud to anyone or hold anyone to the same ridiculously high expectations, somewhere in the back of my mind I was so adamantly sure that I would be an outlier. Which has been another huge source of my anxiety. I am slightly embarrassed to say that I was a bit of a neurotic st...

Why I am starting this... I am creating this blog for myself. And I suppose it is for anyone who may read this. I want to create a space to reinvent freely and to breathe. So often, we find ourselves stuck. I want to break that mold and push past my fears to truly appreciate the life that I have. So here I am. Writing this blog post tonight in the hopes that I can create a safe space to express my thoughts, share   experiences, and promote a message of self love and acceptance. No end goal here. Just a space to express who I am.