Big Feelings ♡

I have big feelings. 

Sometimes little passing ones, but other times big ones that grow and flood into one another. I cope and I manage, but it's something very true to who I am. Some of these big feelings are beautiful and iridescent. Others are heavy and all consuming. And sometimes I feel ashamed and sometimes I even apologize.

"I'm sorry I am feeling things so strongly, I'm sorry if my emotions cause you discomfort, I'm sorry if I am too much to handle right now."- I try to think out loud of what people would actually respond with if these words left my mouth. But they echo in my mind.

Similarly, these posts on this blog are heavy. I get nervous to share aspects of them- even if I wind up being the only one who reads it. But they are true and accurate reflections of my thoughts. And at the end of the day I am proud of them.

The past several years, I have truly seen people in very personal and raw moments- more than I ever had before. Moments of anxiety, happiness, fearfulness, drunkenness, nervousness, and absolute silliness. These are the moments that have made me appreciate those people in my life even more. They are real and human and imperfect and absolutely wonderful. 

Wouldn't it be spectacular if we always viewed ourselves in that way?